We can't wear this?!

I was sitting in a living room chair asking God to take me to Heaven. I was lifted up, while in the chair, into the sky. The sky was cloudy. I kept going up as if on my way to Heaven. I had the feeling of fear that the chair would turn over and I would fall. I was thinking of ways to hold on, even if the chair was to turn upside down, I would hold on. The thought did occur to me that the Lord would catch me if I fell. I passed a decorated cupcake and party favor on my way up. I knew I was going to Heaven. Just before waking I was taken back to the Livingroom, then I woke up.

I have had about 5 dreams now with my old supervisor who is named LeaAnn Walker. dream: I am married to Bill (my ex-husband). We have a large house and he buys a couple of 80 inch TV’s. He pus one in a space that is like a garage or storage room next to the living room/family room. I can see the room through a window in the living room. I wonder why he wants one there. Then he puts another TV within 10 feet of the other TV. I am confused why he wants some many TV’s. Then later he wants to divorce me. After talking and not wanting to change where we live - he wants me to keep living in the house. Not because of affection for me but for other reasons. LeaAnn comes to see me. I hug her. I show her my little daughter who is about 3 years old. I get LeaAnn something to eat and she sits at the table in kitchen. I go attend to my daughter (not mine in real life). She also is eating something. I go back into kitchen and see LeaAnn’s stuff at the table- she has left her cigarette burning for her to come back to it. I am surprised and a little disgusted at the cigarette smell. (Real life -she does smoke nor could I imagine it). Then we are talking. She figures out about my divorce which I am embarrassed about and was not going to tell her. In real life- I have not saw her in person since we both left our jobs in 2016. Follow her on Facebook. She is a stay at home mom, Christian and also does photography. In the last year I also started photography. It seems that in the dreams I always hug her - tight kinda of hugs.

In the dream I am sleeping dreaming of me in my bed sleep. During this my heart beat stops twice. For at time I tried to call out for help to derek(my husban and couldn't move or talk. My heart starts beating again then stops. The second time it stops I moan and feel my spirit talking to God asking is it time yet have I completed my assignment? I then say Oh God please cover my husband and children. When I say this my heart starts to beat and I woke up into a hospital bed. The doctor mentioned s- something marfan syndrome and I needed to take these meds to keep my heart beating. I then ask for another doctor for better explaining. One the doctor left I woke up out of the dream feeling heavy hearted.